Lisa's Blogdrive.

September 15th 2008

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 11:36:21 GMT

it's been a while.

6 periods of geography skills today.
eshayssss.
tired to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

still wonders.
how can i take a step forward without wanting to take a step back ?

had this dream the other night.
of falling off an escalator. farrrrr.
crazyy.

10th September 2008

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 10:20:19 GMT

Brutha - Afraid To Love.

tuan : you're going to cap the school's net HAHAS
(downloading music from weetart. LOL)

SORRY ANDYY !
I ACCIDENTALLY SMACKED YOUR ASS !
it as an accident = =, nice ass btw ;)

8th September 2008

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 10:36:01 GMT

hm, so what am i going to base my english poem on ?

tomorrow's 9th September 2008.
finally, i'm uncapped.
oh & theara's 18th.

(8)thinking maybe someday he'll come back,
wish it all the time(8)
Neyo - Let Go

The Tony Rich Project - Nobody Knows

(8)Wanna be with somebody else, i push them away(8)
Stevie Hoang - Addicted
.. but it'll never feel the same.

(8)Losing you wasn't the part of the plan.. (8)

thought there's questions i still want answered,
i know i have to leave it, & let it be.
don't know why it has to be like this, why it has to feel this hard.
wanted him to be with me for that upcomming night.
i don't want to keep wondering why this, wondering why that.
because things just happen. sooner or later, the answer will come..
hopefully, eventually.

6th September 2008

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 01:04:13 GMT

it might take a year or so, but OH WELLLLLLLLLL. if the feeling's gone, then it'll do.

last night, was reminded of him.
was questioned about him.
sudden stop, sudden silence, when i heard his name.
spoke to my cousins, told her how we met, how we ended it.
all the goods that happened in between us. & how i still think about him everyday.
told her how i'm still hurting inside, how i wished that last chance to be together could have worked out.
told her about all the cute things he did for me.
& told her how i screwed it up, how i made those mistakes i shouldn't have.
looked to the rain sprikling, it got me thinking.
& so my other cousin comforted me, told me the person he's first love, really hurt him. how he can't put his trust in another girl again. but he's feelings for them would never be the same. he said it'll take time, said it took about a year & a half for him to let it go.

& for that dream last night.
that final kiss, unfortunately, i had to wake up to reality.
if being friends, is the only contact i can have with him, then let it be.
10th October 2008, Brian McKnight - 6,8,12.
sounds crazy, it's unbelievable how i can still remember the date,
reminisce all the things that happened picture perfect.
i remember the email i sent to him, the first one where i really thought about what i was going to say, how i really put my emotions into it, asking for him to give me some time. well this time, each & every blog i've been posting mentioning him, it's just as the same. i put my feelings into it, because hey, it's a blogpage, it's a journal for me.

5th September 2008

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 03:03:40 GMT

today makes australia's history.
minus 100 degrees celcius.
excellenttttt ! great way to celebrate moonfestival.HAHAHAHS !
poor guys.
speaking of which, i'm going to get a mooncake :)
brb.

okay back.
no wait, brb again.
showeringgggggg.

well, i'll continue blogging ladurhhhh.
after sims 2 :)

4th September 2008

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 11:54:07 GMT

i ate .. 9 baby cakes (muffins).
3 ice creams today & got freaking 2nd chance draw
stupid paddle pop lick a prize.

woo, tt training @ pcyc every fridays.
tt @ mounties every saturday.
how's that for shedding some kilos ?
hahas.

finished that word.doc .
satisfied. 2 nights, & done.
2008, best selling. :)

(8) it's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you,
it's the wrong time, if somebody knew,
it's a small crime, & i've got no excuse (8)
Damien Rice - nine crimes
(8)...but i still find myself asking,
do you still think about me ? the way i think about you?
... my pride got in the way, i should have begged for you to stay...
wanna be with someone else, i push them away(8)
Stevie Hoang - addicted
(8)but here i am again, nothing left inside(8)
Ashley Parker Angel - let you go

history class.
kirsty : it's mad how they can write on rice grains, that would make a mad gift
(opens pencil case, looks at an object, sigh.)

cleaning my cd's, rearranging my things.
found a cd, labelled, damn. i thought i deleted everything.
& helen & diana says i still have the pics in my ipod.
i can't delete it, i don't know why. the folder's gone.
but it still reads it. what the fuck do i do ?
smash my ipod & get a refund ?
screw that.

sometimes, seeing a friend cry, just tears you apart.
sometimes it's hard to give them advice, since you know you should be taking that advice & not contradict yourself.

telling myself, "omg lisa, get over it already, he's over you ffs, gee what's wrong with you? move on, find somone else!"
i was an idiot to think of a rebound. just let things flow naturally.

2nd September 2008

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 06:24:53 GMT

net speed - 0.0000000 kbps .
yay ! my net's capped ! (sarcasm)

finally finished my book. though there's more, i cbf to type it all out.

thought i saw a figure walk towards me one second ago.
reminds me of that time.
ma says she saw a figure pull me into the water & drown me.
can't approach a deep level of water anymore.
ma says she saw a spirit pull me in.

1st September 2008

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 09:41:54 GMT

mmm, first day of spring.

i know no-one is reading this, unless you read my nic which says "blogging" at the end & was curious to see what i was writing. LOL .

but .. last week, almost every night that week, i keep experiencing the same night over .. & over .. again. night 1, i was afraid to fall asleep again .. thinking "what the hell, why now ?" i remember thinking .. "if i could turn the hands of time". night 1, i dreamt i was still with him, everything was fine, everything was .. how it was before. waking up with a shock, knowing i told myself more than a million times, maybe more, that i won't waste my tears on him again, because it's been too long for me to keep holding on.. but i couldn't face it, turned my head to the pillow, & everything seemed blank. i just cried. & said .. "i miss him". next night, we had an argument, & then next night, it ended. it was a sequel. wish i never dreamt those last 2 nights.

seeing him on saturday, was a shock. i only went there to play table tennis with my dad, & to visit kim, as i knew she was at work. hahas, what a suprise, i saw jenna aswell. minutes passed, i was standing near the door. some guy walked through, first though to me "damn, he looks alright". taking a closer look, i turned around to try to walk around, but a group of people were blocking me, & all i wanted was for them to step away so i was able to find a place to sit & get myself together.

it's not like i haven't tried, it's not like i didn't want it to be something. but it's over, & it's been more than 5 months. & i hear he's moved on now, that he's found someone already, & i think .. "she's one lucky girl". i may have taken what we had for granted, maybe i didn't use it like how he wanted me to .. but when i found he probably had feelings for her.. he didn't tell me. & it's not like i can demand for him to confess. he didn't tell me .. i have to abide it. now he's moved on .. the only option left for me to do is to move on. because what's the point of reminiscing ? when there was no past ?

i know you're not reading this. & i'm 100% sure you're not.
i miss you . i still do, & i know you've walked away long ago already, & now you're seeing someone, & you're thinking "she's the one". will she ever love you the way i loved you ? could she just say it, & mean it ?

if only we were friends once again.

29th August 2008

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 23:19:40 GMT

$40 for dad's birthday & father's day present
$20/30 for s's bday present
$29 for sexy top at jay jays
$30 for brown bag at valley girl
$30 for optus prepaid credit
$15 for hampster
Total : $......

long term :
$1500 for custom built computer.
$$$ for electric guitar

ANYWAY ! ROFL AT YESTERDAY IN SCIENCE CLASS !
lisa:dudee, i'm not like interested in guys anymore
adriana:so you're into chicks now?
lisa:NOO ! YOU'RE JUST SICK ! LOL ! i'm not into guys, as in i don't want one.

lisa: aye john, do you play silkroad?
john:yeahh, do you?
lisa:yes(lies for john)
kiet:do you play silkroad?
wayne:do you play silkroad?
stanley:ohh yeah she's that ___(name of character)
(john turns around)
we both shrug our shoulders, like, what's he on about ? LOL.

ms cox.:talk quietter
stanley:shouldn't it be quietly ?

LOL. science class.. ahh .

26th August 2008

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:12:06 GMT

COLDDDDDDDDDDD.

alex, if you're reading.
if you nudge me again, your ass is going back to khampuchea.
:D MWA.

so there's this total sexay cunt. he's name's alex.
we're BFFLs. we tight to the end, we carve our names on tress saying,
LISA + ALEX = BESTIES.
AS IFFFFFFFFFFFF ! HAHAHAHS !

` ALEX _ I'm an ~~uptown girl~~ downtown guy :) says:
ohhhh dearest, sweetest lisa. i'm such a suck up, but it's so true, i just had to tell you this, my life would not be complete without you. you are the best, & i suck. (EPIC FAIL)
l i s 4 ; | ppting. says:
you speak the truth alex, you speak the truth (pats head)

you can look at his heartbreaking blogs.
http://superralex.blogspot.com