it might take a year or so, but OH WELLLLLLLLLL. if the feeling's gone, then it'll do.

last night, was reminded of him.
was questioned about him.
sudden stop, sudden silence, when i heard his name.
spoke to my cousins, told her how we met, how we ended it.
all the goods that happened in between us. & how i still think about him everyday.
told her how i'm still hurting inside, how i wished that last chance to be together could have worked out.
told her about all the cute things he did for me.
& told her how i screwed it up, how i made those mistakes i shouldn't have.
looked to the rain sprikling, it got me thinking.
& so my other cousin comforted me, told me the person he's first love, really hurt him. how he can't put his trust in another girl again. but he's feelings for them would never be the same. he said it'll take time, said it took about a year & a half for him to let it go.

& for that dream last night.
that final kiss, unfortunately, i had to wake up to reality.
if being friends, is the only contact i can have with him, then let it be.
10th October 2008, Brian McKnight - 6,8,12.
sounds crazy, it's unbelievable how i can still remember the date,
reminisce all the things that happened picture perfect.
i remember the email i sent to him, the first one where i really thought about what i was going to say, how i really put my emotions into it, asking for him to give me some time. well this time, each & every blog i've been posting mentioning him, it's just as the same. i put my feelings into it, because hey, it's a blogpage, it's a journal for me.